well johny rockets been screwing me over the job i got in april im quiting there im single sorta right now got accouple prospect but one i really want more then anything else. Her name is julie and she lives in burlington she is so amazing like wow good looks good personality likes me for me , and ya she is moving to the area in sept i think things might actualy work out for me for once. i think im the only one who is writng in here stil lbut meh .

So i met this girl megan, at school last week. we are gettign along pretty good we are practicaly dating she is so sweet and nice and very similar to me its awesome we both really like eac hother all considering. her parents think im the best . i slept there last night , im like pat of the family her mom was liek to megan's 3 yr old sister dosen't uncle Erik get a hug b4 bed too it was pretty funny made me feel really good too:). i was doing soul shots with megan's step dad i dont even know how many shots we did but man it was good stuff, and him and i get along really good it is really sweet great gurl good family family lieks me too its jsut such a ncie change in my life right now maybe it will keep me on the straight and narrow. johny rockets called me last night too when i was over there on my cell phone i got a second interview on saturday at 3 pm it is a job at the casino so i will be makign quite a good bit of money now i practicaly have the job too which is greeat so i can quit far east :). man its amazing what a good week this is turning out to be already. I'm thinking of asking her out tonight ya know I know the answer already but iunno i might wait till tommorow I'm goign over to her house tonight right after school too. I'm going to try and convince her parents to put her lil sis into a french school next year for Jk I can teac hthe kid the french and help her too It would really help her in life alot.

when im around megan im soo happy its been a long time since i have been actualy happy and not a mask and when im around her and her family im myself not one of my mask's which i like im not going to take shit from anybody about me dating her or anyuthing becuz this is something for me and her not something between the world only reason im writing it in here is so y guys can know why im happy all of a sudden. i prob wibt be going to the table much anymore becuz il just hang out with her at lunch from now on. im going to start goign to my 4th periode tommorow and im goign to work my ass off i know il have to put alot of over time into my work but il do it im making the appointment to dreop my freench tommorow becuz well iu havent been there in 3 weeks and i dont care about it im coming back next year and a summester after that too prob to get all 80 in the courses i need. my eyes are closed right now im in my friends 3rd periode class ya jesse just got up and moved around showed me his skin it looks cool but man this music that megan lsitens to is pretty good i stole her cd player:P. Jesse dosen't like it but i do. I feel liek listenign to some fricken nickelback but il get that around 9 when i go home. I can see myself staying around megan and her family for quite some time even if we break up il try and stay around them becuz i feel good there we are all open and they know im bi and stuff and they are accepting well megan is bi too her last relationship was a gf i think i might be one of her first true bf's when i become a bfd of course:P. man been so long that i have wrote in here its still second nature tho pouring out my thoughts doing it with my eyes closed feels so relaxing its serine. well i gota go now do somethign else my heart is empty i need alitle soul lol catch ya l8r.

Well its been a logn time blog. im back i nschool its hard im not used to it the group is a buh of shit faced idiots now and sexual predators almsot seems like im one of the best ppl in it altho i dont wanan be in it jsut am cuz i like one person funny tho i created thegroup now i hate it.im still single 7 months now was suppsoe to have a date today she never calledm back ypica lwoman .never can be trusted with anythin i wann kill my parents right now jsust becuz im feeling good and there sick i have no access to anythign in the house im cooped up in my room on the god awfull machine i feel liek killing myself right now my life looks bleak . i have decided my carreer path tho military goign to retire form that with a good chunk of change and live my life the way i want to but ya thas if i make it to join i dont see myself living to muuch longer now a days. life is jsut too much hassle it isnt worht it anymore . i dont want u ppl goign ya yaay it will get better cuz ppl have been sayign thatfor the past 2 years and it is only getting worse so fuck off. I really wish i was in quebec right now i was suppose to be there but i coudlnt fund it oh ya my cell phoen got stolen i got a replacement now it sucks in comparison i wish i had my child hood back i wish i was 7 and didndt knwo the problems of the world inocense is bliss. heres somethign for u to chew on i know somethign on every one of u and im not keeping this shit in any longer i see no point u all piss me off and expect me to keep ur dirty litle secretes i dont know why i shoudl anymore u do nuthgin for me.

well monday was pool night, it was a fun night. I played pretty good and we won accouple games. there was this really hot blond bartender i started flirting with her she flirted back, thne she started drinking and she really began to hit on me. we got talking i found otu she is 34 beugtifull blond thought she was 23 tops , turns out she thinks i mrealy hot too which is a plus and im a sweet nice guy ...she has 17 year old daughter lol she is like il give u to my daughter then she is like il have to stay away form u i guess she coudlnt resist my looks lol. then she started to rub against me it was quite funny. she is working tommorow so i am goign to go to the far east pick up my checkgo to the bank then head over for some more pool.she works tommorow so it should be a interesting day tommorow.

Well this march break i hve decided to go to quebec to see my grandparents from my fathers side i havent seen in 11 years. there is accouple advantages to this one im 18 2 they have money 3 ive missed out on alot of birthdays and christmas' and my granfather said we would go ot the bar toghether. i know i haven't writen in awhile but owell. school starts feb7th yay so i can see all my friends. oh and another thing about this milf she might be sending her daughter to myer lol its kidna cool but ya good day yesterday hope today turns out as well as it did yesterday anyways im off ttyl.