well i finnaly found a girl its been like what sooo long but ya i found a girl . Her name is Ashley she is fuckign awesome wish i woulda met her sooner. she and I have soo much in common i met her online but meh she lives not too far away from my buddies appt. when im with her i feel awesome its been awhile since i have feeling for anybody i dont know hwo to handle them naymore i feel like im younger teens again not an almsot 20yr old and she is close to my age to owhich is pretty cool. i hope this one works out i can see us going far :)

Hmm so Dj and James are living with me now if u ask me its the biggest mistake I ever made but no going back now i cant be an asshole even tho they are both being one right now. So i was at the club last thursday with 2 girls who aren't the best looking got totaly wasted and had sex with one of them at first i thought it was both i cant really recall much of that night and james knows then and has a pic of them on the computer showed everybody now they all fukin laughign at me . the stupid thing is isnt somebodies sex life suppsoe to be ya know sorta private owell they can go grow up. today they were showign sped on my laptop so i took it and all the stuff that goes with it up to my room and i didnt look it but i was totaly pissed off/so then pizza comes i go to grab a slice and they are like did we say u could have one so i am like W/E fuck you and i left then they yell come here u bastard and come grab a slice but i was at the point of no return. hope this helps me cool down cuz i have a urge to well decapitate them all butthen id go to jail so i rationalized myself out of that one. im siting on my bed with my laptop in the dark going why do ppl u call friends have to be such ass holes


Last night i had somebody over that i had been talkign to on the net in the city for awhile first time meeting we watched the water boy then 3 cheech and chong movies . drank some wine ..well between us 2 botles of home made wine and a beer each we were not drunk or anything i wasnt even buzzed and she was alright . we had been flirting the entire night she grabbed my ass at one poitn and i kept nagging at her about staring at my ass everytime i got up. well one thing led to another and at this point we got close i dont knwo hwo but after the last movie was over i said what do u wanna do lol she had no i idea so iunno we got close and i looked at her and well i saw the spark so i leaned in for a kiss . wow to my amazement it was recipricated. we started making out hardcore for about 30 min and then she hinted to sex and im liek i cant do it here so i went to the basement and kciked dj up to my room nevertheless it was awesome :). so her and i are now kinda close she is coming over tommorow and we will see where things take us then. I have a strong feelign we will end up going out , actualy im kidna hope we do ive been single for some time now and ive been lookign for a girl to hook up with. and im not going to go out with ehr jsut becuz we had sex its becuz she is nice cute and wel an awesome person we had hung out for liek 6 hours b4 she and i had sex. owell this is the end dont think of me as a sex freak thigns jsut happen i wish i didnt do as much as i did but sometimes the moment is that and u just gota go with the flow.

Well my life is being alitle tipsy lately im on my new laptop in my basement i love it :P. im out of a job right now but i hav high hopes im curently in a company my buddy and i won internet business and such we are workign on completing our first leg soon to start the second and we have our expenses covered for the next 6 months in a year we could be making 60 thousand or mroe between the 2 of us in profit not bad for 2 highschool drop outs . once i find a job tho i will be trying to get onto some online learnign to get the rest of my credits. hmm my love life is non existent but idont care im very happy just hanging out with my friends i dont need companionship past the friends who i know will be there for me. im very content with my life right now actualy. altho recently i have been talkign to a girl in my city named amanda a aquaintance of one of my best friends amy. ive been drinkign alot since my 19 birthday then i spent a week sobering up it was kidna funny cuz i only have paid for my own liquor like 5 times since my birthday and i have had alot of liquor since then its kind of pathetic but u only live once right LOL. well im singing this off now time for a smoke and some nice tv. I wonder if any of u will read this owell. I LOVE MUSIC LOL

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